a milestone

We've started praying together. I think it's a good sign.

and of promises and closing your eyes on the truth

The world is extremely interesting to a joyful soul. ~ Alexandra Stoddard

Do i still have the joyful soul? The Alexandra Stoddard quote doesn't seem to apply to me now. Sigh. Getting tired. Almost surrendering. But still, I find this world interesting enough. More corners to explore,more beautiful souls to meet, more experiences to encounter. And perhaps more trying experiences and difficult persons to learn from.

So I'm not exempt--I'm given a cross too, and it's pretty heavy like how others are complaining about theirs. So life is fair; just like everyone I have a burden too, something to slow me down from all the hurrying up...

But can't I just pick another cross this time? I don't like lying, I want to be true in all that I do, because I've been so free before. And I'm pretty certain that a wee bit of lying today will add up to more lies later. I'm like choked, imprisoned... I have a key though; I have a choice so I can always get out...

But I promised...

no, i'm not referring to work...

Whoever said that I'm one energizer bunny is wrong. Well, now I think he/she is. I also thought I was then, and even went the extent of once bragging that I could outrun, outswim, outsmart, most a number of my male friends. But now that I think about it, I could never beat a big bass drum like that bright pink toy did.

And unlike the young rabbit, I am now tired... Even feeling that I'm near to falling apart. Maybe that's what the very sudden move to an unfamiliar turf gives me, what with the change from the peaceful, but sometimes boring, trodden path, to the crazy, demanding but sightly superhighway. Why didn't somebody warn me that something this wonderful could suck one's energy?

Ga, tell me that I am just adjusting, that exhaustion is typical of those new to traversing this path. Say you'll soothe my sore and aching muscles from all the driving (and walking when we run out of fuel). Assure me that in no time I'll be back to the energizer bunny that I have been, Ray-Ban sunglasses and all. Tell me all these because now I'm asking myself if I made the right choice.

excuse me but i got stung by the love bug

Not long after you met me, you made up your mind that I was the one.
I was surprised at your swift decision but
eventually you've got me believing in destiny.
You showed me how our names have been inscribed in
each other's heart before we even met.

Now I see that there is no one else I want to be. So I've decided it's you that I'll be spending the rest of my life with...No matter what life brings us.

Let's abandon those doubts and fears because we are meant to be together, and with God's blessings, forever.

teecee: the first time you made me cry

you were still half-way with your life story but i was already crying my heart out. your past let me understand how you sometimes have insecurity and self-pity attacks. i wanted to hug you but the phone is just what connected us, so i tried to convince you, in between sobs, that everything will be okay from now on. that i will always be here, that i won't be leaving you.

and yes, i'll be spending more time with my family and i will always tell and show them that i love them so much...

your parents, wherever they are right now, are surely proud of you.

it's friday, i'm in...

july 25, 2008
12:24 a.m.

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tzarness

How Did You Know
by GaryV

I remember so well
The day that you came into my life
You asked for my name
You had the most beautiful smile

My life started to change
I'd wake up each day feeling alright
With you right by my side
Makes me feel things will work out just fine

CHORUS

How did you know
I needed someone like you in my life
That there was an empty space in my heart
You came at the right time in my life

I'll never forget
How you brought the sun to shine in my life
And took all the worries and fears that I had
I guess what I'm really trying to say
It's not everyday that someone like you comes my way
No words can express how much I love you